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Spent the weekend with the Beanie in SF. It was weird. I felt a little like some alien space creature. This is because BABIES ARE RARE in SF. Seriously. Everyone wants to hold her. Strangers. And I let them. I'm insane, I know. But I keep thinking "what could possibly happen? She's exposed to a new germ that I'm sure I have the antibody to; she could be stolen (but that's bloody unlikely with me standing there); she could be dropped, but that could happen no matter who's holding her; she could cry. A waitress at the Herbivore took her in back to meet the staff because she had a 6 month old boy and all the cooks had new babies. Everyone was thrilled. I sat at my seat anxiously thinking "how dumb am I? I'm not supervising someone with my newborn." And then the waitress brought back my grinning gummed beanie with a spoon in her hand. My kid is an interactor. It's already happening. And she interacts with people and I wonder if this magical thing is going to keep going or if she's going to have the normal response to strangers most kids end up with; the fear thing.
I heartily admit I'm a bit of an idiot, and don't intend to hand her off to the next waitress that comes my way. But I don't want to overreact. I'm in this weird quandary where I don't want to be insulting, but I don't want my kid swiped either. And I usually give in to the "go ahead and hold her" thing because really, how often DO kids disappear to stranger kidnappings? Nearly never.
But it scares the shit out of me. And I hate that I hand her off just to challenge my own discomfort.
She's being very cute lately. We stayed all weekend in SF and visited bunches of people and walked all over. And we bought some cheese.
Tomorrow we leave for a very long drive to LA to visit the Great-Grandparentals for TG. Should be interesting...
~Beanie's Crazy Mama
Spent the weekend with the Beanie in SF. It was weird. I felt a little like some alien space creature. This is because BABIES ARE RARE in SF. Seriously. Everyone wants to hold her. Strangers. And I let them. I'm insane, I know. But I keep thinking "what could possibly happen? She's exposed to a new germ that I'm sure I have the antibody to; she could be stolen (but that's bloody unlikely with me standing there); she could be dropped, but that could happen no matter who's holding her; she could cry. A waitress at the Herbivore took her in back to meet the staff because she had a 6 month old boy and all the cooks had new babies. Everyone was thrilled. I sat at my seat anxiously thinking "how dumb am I? I'm not supervising someone with my newborn." And then the waitress brought back my grinning gummed beanie with a spoon in her hand. My kid is an interactor. It's already happening. And she interacts with people and I wonder if this magical thing is going to keep going or if she's going to have the normal response to strangers most kids end up with; the fear thing.
I heartily admit I'm a bit of an idiot, and don't intend to hand her off to the next waitress that comes my way. But I don't want to overreact. I'm in this weird quandary where I don't want to be insulting, but I don't want my kid swiped either. And I usually give in to the "go ahead and hold her" thing because really, how often DO kids disappear to stranger kidnappings? Nearly never.
But it scares the shit out of me. And I hate that I hand her off just to challenge my own discomfort.
She's being very cute lately. We stayed all weekend in SF and visited bunches of people and walked all over. And we bought some cheese.
Tomorrow we leave for a very long drive to LA to visit the Great-Grandparentals for TG. Should be interesting...
~Beanie's Crazy Mama
posted by A P M @ 9:01 PM
1 Comments:
At 9:41 AM,
Anonymous said…
I like how open you are with Beanie. I usually feel uncomfortable holding other people's babies because I feel like they are panicked, waiting for me to drop them every second I have them. Handing her off to complete strangers might be a little too trusting, but I love how comfortable you are with her. I think it is really admirable.
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